I've just had a huge burst of excitement because Jon reminded me that prom is next weekend.  I can't wait to get all dressed up and get my hair done and be all prettyful and have Nate Walker come to pick me up and I hope he thinks I'm beautiful.  Then we'll take tons of pictures and smile and smile and smile...and that will be a crazy lot of smiling.  I have also realized that I'm so ready for college and graduating and all of that stuff.  I have grown out of high school. So tomorrow will be me working one year at Rite Aid.  Quite an accomplishment...ha.  Maybe I'll get a 50 cent raise..oh I hope so.  Also, I'd like to add that I love my sister Juli. 

Today I turned the big one-eight.  Crazy.  I got a lot of money.  My friend Ali did something really cool, she got me 4 cards, yes count them, 4.  She made a little game and put a cute "to be continued" in them.  She is really nice and thoguhtful.  It was a really great day overall.  People like me, a lot.  I like them too.

I have wonderful friends!

I decided that it was time for an update...this may be a long one, possibly even boring.  You have been warned

I think I grew up...that is all I have to say about that.

Boys have been on my brain lately.  Actually who am I kidding?  When are they not...Anyway.  I think that I figured out exactly what I want. 

I want someone who has eyes like I've never seen before, even if I've seen better eyes, I want to look at this guy and think his rock hardcore. 

I want to experience total euphoria when simply holding his hand. 

I want to fit  perfectly into his arms when we cuddle to watch a movie...or just when he hugs me goodbye, or hello, or randomly.  I want a good, gentle kisser.  But they have to be those real kisses that make my knees weak.  The kind that make everything disappear.  They have to be like Christmas.

I want someone romantic.  I like little notes, I like mail, I like flowers, I like to be told I'm beautiful. 

I want someone with flaws.  Flaws that I can find beautiful.  Flaws that I can find annoying.  I just do not want perfection. 

But most of all, I just want someone who will let me appreciate them.  I'm always so ready to put my entire heart into something, and for once, I want someone who is ready to take care of it.

I have also decided that I will most likely have to wait for a long time before I can find this man. 

I am prepared.